Picture, Commentary and Song for the week:
(it was a big week)
Luc and I were talking about how hard life has been but how, in an odd sort of way, we’ve been granted “do-overs” for 2010. We have the chance to take some recent faults and failures and to bury them in a time capsule called 2009.
By burying them we see them for what they are, properly analyze and grieve them, and then bury them as fast as Sam can dig the hole in the pastor’s yard.
While we were laughing to get through the pain, she mentioned about writing her memoir on starting over, and asked what it should be called. I mentioned Groundhog Day; partly because it fit, and partly because that has been my week.
Every day this week I’ve taken one ridiculously hard day, gotten through it, and then moved on to the next – with full expectation that it would be different (ahem…better than the one before). If anything, they keep getting worse.
(Please don’t misunderstand. There is tragedy in the world and mine isn’t that despairing. The week has had some good, but it has had an amazingly large amount of bad in it too.)
In the movie Groundhog Day Bill Murray’s character repeats the same day until he has one defining moment that allows his life to move forward. Considering it’s Friday and the days have consecutively gotten worse, I’m super curious to know what I should be learning in order to move forward – because as of today, life’s not letting me.
A life-changing event did happen this week; and it, combined with Groundhog Day, and bits and pieces of the lyrics to Merry Happy by Kate Nash sum up my week perfectly:
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Gave me those pearls and I thought they were ugly,
Though you try to tell me that you never loved me
I know that you did, ‘Cause you said it and you wrote it down
Dancing at discos, Eating cheese on toast,
Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy
But you obviously, you didn’t want to stick around
So I learnt from you.
Do do do da do do do do do da do do do do do da do
So I learnt from you.
Do do do da do do do do do da do do do do do da do
I can be alone, yeah. I can watch a sunset on my own.
I can be alone. I can watch a sunset on my own
Sitting in restaurants, Thought we were so grown up
But I know now that we were not the people,
That we turned out to be
Chatting on the phone, Can’t take back those hours
But I won’t regret, ‘Cause you can grow flowers
From where dirt used to be
Dancing at discos, Eating cheese on toast,
Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy
But you obviously, you didn’t want to stick around,
So I learnt from you.
